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| I miss you |
[Jan 30th, 2006] |
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Mirah - Don't Die In Me |
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Ooh today was good good good. I recorded a half an hour radio show at media training, it went suprisingly well, I messed up a few times but today was only my first practice. I have to broadcast it live in March, to like everyone who will be listening in Ashfield/Mansfield/Hucknall. So yeah, media training went well.
After schooltime I went to see Sophie because I missed her too much, had fun =D. We went to nics and she looked like a moomin!
Here is a picture of a moomin:-
But yesterday she looked like a Womble, here is a womble:-
Yes, I am insane. And, no I'm not on LSD.
Went to Soph's afterwards ^_^. Kissed alot, this makes me feel loved haha. Her mum kept coming in and it made me jump so she got suspicious and it was funny and I probably made it worse by jumping so dramatically, hahaha. And Chaz wanted help with her mag.
I caught the train home and now I miss Sophie again and I want to see her again, I may go see her again tomorrow.
Okay, photography time.
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[Jan 30th, 2006] |
MIRAH - DON'T DIE IN ME
IS A FUCKING AMAZING SONG.
AND SO IS
MIRAH - 100 KNIVES
AND
SIA - BREATHE ME
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| ahhh, no time |
[Jan 30th, 2006] |
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Sia - Breathe me |
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Yesterday was perfect.
I have photography to post on here but I haven't got time right now. I have to go to media training, like now!
I'll update later.
Yesterday was perfect.
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| Fabtastic |
[Jan 28th, 2006] |
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Mirah - Telephone wires |
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Today has been great, been with Soph all day. Had funnnnnnnn =D. She got me back for that huuuuuuge love bite her gave her, yeah. She gave me a huuuge blood blister/bruise on my lip, she sucked my bottom lip really hard, felt like I had my lip up against a bath plug whole draining water away, haha. It's black and looks like someone has punched me in the face. Mum thinks some chav smacked me xD, although I told her I walked into the door. So we're equal now, haha. Apart from getting the huge blood blister, my day with her was good =].
I didn't want her to leave and I didn't want to let go of her at the trainstation, then I nearly cried when I walked away. I wanted to stay with her.
I went to red planet afterwards, had half an hour and a laugh with everyone which lasted until half 10. Then I come home.
THE END.
no photography today, been with Soph... got a polaroid from yesterday though!
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| Another weekend |
[Jan 28th, 2006] |
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Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism |
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I had a really bad headache last night, it's gone now though :).
I'm seeing Soph today ^_______^, this makes me happy, very happy.
Well, I haven't got much to write about today so far because I've only just woken up and right now I'm eating breakfast.
I've printed out my photos, making a portfolio now ^_^. I'm gunna go do some photography for SoS sometime soon, when they're practising, should be fun.
I'll update later =D.
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| PHOTOPHOTOPHOTO |
[Jan 27th, 2006] |
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Architecture In Helsinki - Maybe you can owe me |
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Pretty good day! In the morning I had maths, okay so that wasn't the good part, that is the bad part - I hate maths -. Afterwards I did art, I had to set a "creative scene" in the kitchen and photograph it, it went pretty well!
After school time I went down to Red Planet, stopped off for photo oppertunities along the way though. I did some online database work for Red Planet and Jono gave me free coffee and 12 hours free gaming for whenever I want. Considering how easy that database work was, free coffee and 12 hours free gaming is a damn good payment!
I left Red Planet and went around town to do some photography, I got some really good shots, might use some of them for some art projects, I'm super pleased with them.
I started to get cold so I went back home, had a bath and talked on msn to people. funfunfun!
I'm in a great mood right now, I have art again in the morning, yay!
Okay so here's some of my latest photography work, lj-cut.
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| Logic |
[Jan 26th, 2006] |
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Tegan & Sara - Walking With A Ghost |
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I have decided that I want to live without logic, I do not need it. Without logic I can loose myself in any dream, without logic it can be come reality. Logic is what keeps the difference between our realities and our imaginations, that is what I don't like about it. I want my imaginations to come true.
I have also decided that I'm gunna scrap my photoblog, because I can just use deviantART for my gallery, and I can just post the odd pictures on an lj-cut on here. No need for the lj photoblog really now.
I only have 5 polaroid exposures left, so I'm waiting for the right time for the perfect shot now, I'm prepared to wait a long time, haha. In the mean time I'll just do digital.
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| Argument |
[Jan 25th, 2006] |
Just had a massive argument with my mum. Lasted 3 hours. We argued about practically everything, I smashed a tv remote and a dinner plate and she nearly had a breakdown.
Fun.
I feek like shit.
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| I live for the weekend. |
[Jan 25th, 2006] |
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Frou Frou - Shh |
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The weekdays seem so drab to me, all week I'm just imagining that it's Friday, I try to forget about my schoolwork so I can live the weekend before it even gets here. I mindlessly dordle through each boring set of days until it's Friday after 3:30, then I feel relaxed. It feels like a relief, as if something horrible has been chasing me all week, trying to get me down then I loose it and I can breathe again. I get the impression that the weekdays don't bother other people quite as much as they do me. It was worse when I was in school, alot, lot worse. Oh god.
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| Business studies is a pile of cack |
[Jan 24th, 2006] |
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Architecture in Helsinki - Do the whirlwind |
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Been doing business studies coursework alllllll dayy, it's not good. Then I went and took 2 polaroids, one of thems pretty cool I reckon.
I just got back in, any my hands are damn freezing!
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| Media training again, oh and computorrrrzzz shit. |
[Jan 23rd, 2006] |
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The Get Up Kids -Holiday |
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Went to media training again today, it was way good today and I did like a half an hour interview. Sophie text me when I was conducting this interview and I was like "OH SHIT".. but I edited my phont rining out of it and got more marks in the end! Thanks Soph <3 haha.
Went to Dads after that, fixed up his computer and transferred all the Christmas photos to disc. s'all sorted now.
I've been going crazy with this polaroid camera I've took so many photos with it already, I like it better than digital because they're instant and they just look better in the polaroid frame. Way cool it is. I haven't actually taken many really good pics with it yet, I've just been messing about with it to get the feel of it, I'll start doing something serious with it after I've finished my first lot of film.
My Dads vintage turntable, it's wayyy bigger than what you can see in the picture and looks amazing.
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[Jan 21st, 2006] |
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I wish we could turn off the clocks and stay here together, forever.
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[Jan 21st, 2006] |
Sophie keeps blowing
rasberrys
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| Back home again |
[Jan 21st, 2006] |
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Just got in from the all nighter, although it wasn't an ALL nighter, it finished about 1:30am. I'm back home now and it's now 2:11am. hmm, this isn't much of an entry is it? More of a "lets tell you the time" sort of thing.
Well, the all nighter was fun, best five pounds I've spent on myself in a long, long time. Great.
Pwned everyone at CoD2. Cus' I'm a salmon!
I'm turning into a complete nerd, totally. It's not good. I don't think gaming like 24/7 (exag') does it much good either. I should probably stop turning into a nerd, right now... can't just stop gaming thogh, that'd be baaaaad. I'll just pretend to be a n00b and not know what I'm doing or something, yeah.
um, I'm tired and I want to look at least a quarter decent for soph tomorrow, so it's probably better if I go to sleep. Go to sleep riiiight now.
Wanna play tetris motherfucker!!!11?
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| Scotts' birthday lock-in |
[Jan 20th, 2006] |
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Okay so I'm locked in red planet with everyone until about 1am. I'm a bit hyper right now and I can't be arsed to type up a huge entry about my day... even though it wouldn't be a huge entry becasue my day hasn't been very eventful,exept for this. So I would like to enjoyu this eventfulness :P.
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| I don't know.. some random subject here. |
[Jan 18th, 2006] |
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Jacks Mannequin - We were made for eachother/you can breathe |
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I got my vintage polaroid camera today, yayy. It's well cool and looks old style, I love it. I need some exposures for it now.
Today I went out to meet Nick, Jamie, James, Kieran, David, Emma, Catheryn and whats her face...
it was nice, I hadn't seen all of them for agges and I miss them all =[. It was cool to hang out with them again though :). Stuart and Adam came by later and we went to folky, I just messed about in the hall and hung out with stuart and everyone. Adam was elsewhere, I don't know.
After that I went to planet' to see everyone, I hadn't been in planet' for ages either... come to think of it, I haven't even been downtown in ages, haha. No wonder everyones forgotten me =[. I looose.
Ah well, theres an iguk leage for CoD2 coming up soon, when I'm 15 in april I'm gunna fucking own that league. Can't wait :P. Until then I'll pack lots and lots of practice in. -must win money-. haha I remember when I won the UT leage match once, that banked me £50.. I think CoD2 is for £100. ummhmm..
It's fairly easy money.
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| First day of media training |
[Jan 16th, 2006] |
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Okay I went to media training today, it's in this retardedly small, hidden away place in Annasley Woodhouse. It was alright though, the only thing is, I can't seem to relate to anyone who's doing the course, only the sixth former who's there to help out with everything. I talked to her, but I didn't talk to the people who are actually doing the course much. When I got back home I wasn't sure if I wanted to carry on with it but I guess I will, it's experience at least.
I love playing the solo in "Siberian Kiss"by Glassjaw over and over again on guitar...
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| I don't know |
[Jan 15th, 2006] |
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My eyes are filling up with tears and I don't know why.
Well actually I do know why but I'm not going to say why.
I think this means i'm insecure and afraid.
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| "So strap in and sit tight cus' the boosh that is mighy is coming at you like a flannel" |
[Jan 14th, 2006] |
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Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism |
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Today has been pretty damn good.
I met Soph at 11:10 and we waited for Kyle to come (he was going to Nottingham with us), but he didn't turn up so just the two of us went. It was a fun day and Sophie spent her birhday money on some new books and dvd's. I bought Death cabs older album, a new t-shirt and some comics. It was fun ^_^.
Then we went back to Sophies and when her sister came home we all watched "The Mighty Boosh" DVD. It was nice and "The Mighty Boosh" is amazing. I suggest you all go buy the DVD of it right now, I will be doing soon.
Thats about all, I'm not going into detail and all. I just need to tell you all that right now I'm very happy.
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| Erugheugh I need coffee |
[Jan 14th, 2006] |
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Mogwai - Kids Will Be Skeletons |
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Supposed to be going to Nottingham today, I assume I still am but Nic dropped out because her parents won't let her go as she has too much homework. Jess and Jamie both dropped out cus' they're RUBBISH.. Kyle, however hasn't dropped out, neither has Sophie and neither have I. So just the three of us might go. I'm not really sure what we're doing now, Sophie hasn't been online yet and she doesn't know that Nic can't go yet either.
I'm really tired this morning, probably because I hardly slept all night. GAH! I'm such a hypocrite, like right now I'm probably annoying the fuck out of Robbie worrying about his insomnia stuff and theres me not sleeping either. o.O.
I'm going to go watch tv and drink coffee.
- There was once a picture of the "o rly chaz" here but I decided it was too mean to leave the picture up ;p.-
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| Photo retouched |
[Jan 11th, 2006] |
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The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight |
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Retouched all my photos, some of them are better and some of them I probably spolit, ah well it's all in the name of experience I guess. Comment em' tell me what you think. =].
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| Lazy sunday |
[Jan 8th, 2006] |
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The Osterman Weekend - Iron On |
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I've done bugger all today! Whay!
I sat in my room, played guitar, talked to people on msn, ate, drank, owned rifle only servers on COD2, listened to music, danced and laughed for a while at Microsoft's "shell" teams attempt at ripping of MACOSX with their latest OS "Windows Vista"; I'll probably end up buying this despite the fact it's the most obvious rip off I've seen Microsoft attempt.
Thats my day summed up really, haha.
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| Funnns |
[Jan 8th, 2006] |
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Idiot Pilot - Losing color |
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Spent the day with Soph at mine, it was fun =].
I can't be bothered to go into everything that happened, buttt it was fun.
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[Jan 7th, 2006] |
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:|:|:|:|::|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|::|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|:|::|:|
PARENTS ARE COMPLETE UTTER TWATS.
Peaceout.
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| Thinking of her again |
[Jan 7th, 2006] |
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So it's quarter past one in the morning, I haven't slept well for days, I don't think I'm going to get to sleep tonight. I'm thinking of Sophie.
p.s I can smell coffee and incense on my shirt, this reminds me of the first time I went in Red Planet, haha strange.
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| That last entry |
[Jan 6th, 2006] |
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Muse - Butterflies and Hurricanes |
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Well, that last entry stirred up alot of bad things. It's all settled now though, I'm pretty sure. :).
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| NIC IS SCARY |
[Jan 5th, 2006] |
-ahem-
NIC IS A TARDED HORNY MOFO WHO CALLS ME "BABY"
WHAT THE FUCK
HERE ARE SOME SNIPPETS
"peter pan is my hero says:
omg.that link.........
peter pan is my hero says:
that link......
peter pan is my hero says:
made me HORNY ..............HAHAHAHAHA"
"peter pan is my hero says:
you got that right baby"
"peter pan is my hero says:
WELLLLLLLLLLLLL........YES....BCUZ YOU HAVE A GORILLA IN YOUR PANTIES.HAHA."
"peter pan is my hero says:
OMG I WANT TO TOUCH YOUR GORILLA.haha"
"peter pan is my hero says:
OI DAVE
Your perfect verse is just a lie says:
WHAT NIKKERS?
peter pan is my hero says:
HAHAHAHA
peter pan is my hero says:
U R LE AMAZE. not ghEy....nope" - LMFAO WTF
"peter pan is my hero says:
heh..i see you differently..than what i used to...umm...yeP."
lmaolmaolmao
NIC IS SCARY
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| When I love you is not merely enough |
[Jan 5th, 2006] |
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Sophie,
I love you
is not merely enough
to describe how I feel for you
to explain what you mean to me
to express what I'd do for you
I love you is not merely enough.
I give you my word
that I will stay with you forever
no matter what you tell me
and
no matter what you do to me
I will devote my life
and everything I do
to you
When I love you is not merely enough
I want I love you to mean this
I promise you
that I will never stop loving you
no matter what people say
and
no matter what happens in this life
I will fight the hardest battles
and survive these killer bullets
we call "words"
When I love you is not merely enough
I want I love you to mean this
I swear to you
That I will try my best to make everything perfect
no matter what goes wrong
and no matter what holds me down
I will kill off your sadness
and destroy what gets you down
always
When I love you is not merely enough
I want I love you to mean this...
...When I love you is not merely enough
I want I love you to mean this
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| deviantART |
[Jan 4th, 2006] |
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Rookie of the year - Consider this summer |
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CLICKTHEABOVE
So, thats my deviantART and I'll update that with all my best artwork/photography/poetry/prose/songs. I'll still update my photoblog of course, but my photoblog is less selective, I won't just put the best ones on there, I'll put everything on.
If your into photography or art of any kind really I'll advice you to get a deviantART...
in other words...
CHAZGETONENOWORDIEKTHX.
Peaceout.
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[Jan 3rd, 2006] |
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...Also, I need to go out soon and take lots of photopraphs. My photoblog hasn't been updated in a while. Must update soon
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| Back to schoolwork tomorrow. |
[Jan 3rd, 2006] |
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Silverstein - Giving up |
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So it's the night before my tutoring starts again, and I'm feeling like absoloute shit. Not emotionally, I'm fine in that way, I'm happy. But I have a headache and my eyes are stinging really bad and they're watering so much. Urgh I just feel so tired too.
Yesterday was great =].
Hope these first few days of 2006 have been good for everyone. If so, I hope it carries on like that.
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| Happy New Year! |
[Jan 1st, 2006] |
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Emery - The ponytail parade |
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hope everyone has a good year!
I'm not sure about anyone else but 2005 was a bit of an all-over-the-place year alot of good things happened but alot of bad things happen too. I hope I can spend alot of 2006 with Sophie, but I need to see my friends more too.
I'm not sure about a new years resolution, they never work for me, I keep whetever it is up for about 2 weeks then loose it again. ah well.
I didn't do anything last night, I was going to go to a mates and get pissed but nah. Couldn't be bothered really, I just stayed in and did nohing! =D.
Once again, Happy new year :).
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| Chinese + New PC! |
[Dec 30th, 2005] |
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Great! |
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Last night was cool. Went to a Chinese restaurant with Sophie, Dad and Gaye. It went better than I thought! I was really dreading super long awkward silences, but it wasn't like that, yay. It was a nice place too, really decorative.
I've spent alot of time with Soph over the last few days, it's really cheered me up, I'm just dreadin school starting again. I hate it when I only get to see her at weekends and once in the week because of schoolwork/lack of money. I wish we were both older and finished school. grrrr.
Went downtown earlier to pick up my new pc, I'm using it riiight now! I still need to reinstall a hell of a lot of things but it's all going cool. I can't be bothered to describe it all so I'll just give you the specs and you can make of it what you want. Don't dare spark debates about Intel vs AMD or I'll kick your ass, because, AMD IS FTW!!!!!
SPECS MOFO:
Case colours: Black and Silver
Processor board: AMD Athlon 64 3000+ (SKT939) FOXCONN
RAM: 1GB DDR (Got 2 x 512's)
HD: 120gb SATA (SATA FTW BITCH)
HD type: Seagate
Speakers: Genius (standard shit, I plan on buying surround speakers in the near future)
CD RW type: Sony DVD-RW DQ-Q30
Keyboard and Mouse: Logitec (Wired, because wireless mouses are just tarded')
VGA: 128MB GeFORCE 6600 Gamers edition (IT OWNS YOU TO THE FACE)
Monitor: 19" Widescreen TFT - acer (ALSO OWNS YOU TO THE FACE)
O/S: XP home, sp2.
Screen res: 1440 x 900 (HAHAHAHHAHA BIIIIIIIIG)
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[Dec 28th, 2005] |
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I am
VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY
HAPPY.
kthxbi. lol.
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| Christmas eve! |
[Dec 24th, 2005] |
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Pink floyd - Wish you were here |
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It's christmas eve! And wow, I've had hardly any sleep, I feel like shit. Ah well.
The last 2 days I've been with Soph, I hadn't seen her in ages and it was great to see her again. It made me happy and I was happy every second I was with her. We hung out with Nic and Jono&Ash, Kelly and Kyle and Kerry mainly =].
I've been thinking alot these past few nights. I was talking to Sophie last night about everything I've been thinking of. I'll just copy and paste bits of the convo into here so I don't have to type everything out again.
"I don't know exactly whats wrong...
well I guess I do. It's memories, I used to have these
great times with my friends and we all used to be so close
and we laughed with each other. These "great times" seemed
like unhappy times when they were happening because of
everything that was going off with adam and me and lois and
all that shit. But when I look back on it all I was happy
with my friends. I certainly wasn't happy with the
situation, that was killing me. But at least I had some
friends I could go to.
Then I got over lois and I met you and one part of my life
was made perfect, the part that was bad before, the
situation was gone and it was made into something perfect.
But the other part that was good was destroyed, my friends
got into drugs and they mixed with these people and they
changed, they all went seperate ways. Now we're pretty much
destroyed.
I was looking out the bedroom window at my
grandmas last night and I watched groupd of friends walk
past laughing and joking about things and they looked happy
and I remember thats how me and adam and robbie and lois
and stuart used to be."
"I think everyone has a young part in them,
our parents are probably strict with us and frown upon
things we do but really they know exactly what it's like
and they know exactly the things we go through. They've all
had boyfriends/girlfriends they've been in love, they've
been to parties and they'vehad friends. It fascinates me
how some parents restrict they're sons/daughters from going
out. My mate, Robs mum is like this. He has to look after
his sister all the time. I feel sorry for him, he isn't
getting as much experience in stuff as everyone else.
It annoys me when some parents don't let their kids out
because they're afraid that they'll do the things they did
when they were younger.
[00:42:13] (w)There is : If I ever had kids I'd let them live."
"If someone drives past a car in the middle of the night I
always think of the person driving/the people in the car. I
wonder why there out driving so late, where they're going,
where they've come from, who they are and what made them
who they are.
I sort of make up a little life story of some guy I don't
know, I base it on the type of car they have and if I see
the driver/passenger, what they look like. Maybe they work
late at night at a call centre or an airport and they're
going home to their wife and kids and going to bed. Maybe
they're a dad who's split with with his wife and one of his
kids is ill so he's taking them to casualty in the middle
of the night.
I make up storied for people like that. It's strange. I
remember sitting in the back of cars being driven home with
my mum from parties or days out with mine/mums friends when
we stayed at their house late and I'd laugh and joke and
have a good time in kitchens and liiving rooms with the
daughters/sons my age. I always remember drives.
[01:39:30] (w)There is : I'm strange haha"
"[01:47:47] (w)There is : I used to cry everynight, not I cry once
every few weeks.
Things like bottle up and then all come out at night. Then
the next morning I'm like "haha I'm such a fucking tard"
and I laugh it off, but the night before when I was upset I
think to myself "hahah tomorrow morning I'm going to be
laughing at myself because I'm crying now""
"[01:05:08] (w)There is : heh.
I want a long drive over fast highways and country lanes.
[01:05:29] i don't want: get your drivers license and we'll go then
[01:05:30] i don't want: :P
[01:05:43] (w)There is : I was thinking about that too last night.
[01:05:48] (w)There is : haha
[01:05:53] (w)There is : I think too much,me
[01:06:03] i don't want: who doesnt?
[01:06:07] i don't want: :P
[01:06:24] i don't want: i just want to be with you, i dont care
where, as long as you're there i'll be happy
[01:06:30] (w)There is : Some people don't think much at all they just
see things as they see them and accept it.
[01:06:50] (w)There is : When I see something I see it in a million
different ways. It's not all straight forward for me."
"[01:41:56] (w)There is : I think Jono and Ash are a good couple.
[01:42:00] (w)There is : I'm going to tell them that."
I guess that sums everything up. I don't think I need to explain anything, it's all explained.
Happy Christmas everyone :).
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| Present wrapping |
[Dec 20th, 2005] |
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I just finished wrapping everyones presents and putting the tags on and stuff. I haven't even written everyones christmas cards and it's Christmas on Sunday! haha. Ah well.
I feel nice and christmasy =]
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| Better |
[Dec 19th, 2005] |
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Girl 6 - Happy birthday...I hope you choke on cake |
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I'm feeling better today! No need to go to the doctors I don't think, my throat seems to be in perfect working order and I generally feel fine =].
I feel happy. I don't know why, haha. I'm in a fairly good mood at the moment and I had a super cool night last night just watching tv and eating mince pies. It felt like Christmas. Too bad the sun is out today, I want it to snow.
It's getting close to Christmas now, I have everyones presents. I'd like to get a present for everyone but I can't afford. I was gunna get something for Robbie and Lois and everryyoneee but I couldn't make my money stretch that far. I got something for Adam but it was my Dads money that bought that haha.
I can't wait for the Christmas holidays, I just want to be with Sophie.
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| ARRGH FUCKINGHELL |
[Dec 18th, 2005] |
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I am pissed off
So, I got home from the all nighter about 5am and went to bed. I woke up about 6 and I was sick and I kept being sick until about 9am and I kept throwing up stomache acid and it was fucking burning my throat. I went back to sleep again after I'd stopped being sick. I've only just woken up and my throat feels like hell! It feels like all the skin has been burnt off of my throat and my throat muscles just arn't working, I can hardly fucking swallow! I can't physically push food down my throat, so now I'm hungry too.
Maybe I should go to the doctors, it's not everyday my throat just decides to break down.
I just took Sophie's christmas present out of my bag, and it's bloody creased. It must of creased in my bag at some point. So now theres a huuuuuge crease line down the middle of it.
KNNFJDNSFNWETHIHKLNAKLFJIEW
URGGH!
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[Dec 18th, 2005] |
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Still at red planet, getting tired now. I need caffeine!
I got Sophie's christmas present today. urgh, I had the hardest time trying to find something. I was gunna get her "Pieces" which is a book of short stories edited by Stephen Chbosky, buuuuuut they didn't have it in waterstones or anywhere else ¬____¬. So then I was gunna get her an album, but I didn't know what she had already got and what she hadn't. So I got her something else. I bet she's already got it. It would be classc Dave luck.
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| All nighter |
[Dec 17th, 2005] |
At Red Planet all nighter at the moment.
Went to a Japanese restaraunt earlier, that was pretty cool.
So yeah, amusement.
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| I've decided |
[Dec 16th, 2005] |
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I've decided from now on I'm going to put everything in here. Everytime I have a thought about something. I don't care how personal it is and I don't care about how confidential it's supposed to be.
It's going in here. It's time I stopped bottling every single fucking emotion up and scribbling it all over pieces of paper in my mind. I want to be open about everything and anything, so I am going to be.
and I'm crying.
I hate it when Soph puts herself down like she is doing.
She degrades herself and she doesn't deserve to be degraded.
I hate it. I HATE IT!
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| SCANNER. |
[Dec 16th, 2005] |
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iwouldsetmyselfonfireforyou - Clayton |
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As I said in my last entry, I've installed my scanner that I bout like 3 or 4 years ago and never used!
It's a bit dusty and needs cleaning but it will do for now.
( OMGCLICKHERENOW )
YAY.
I'll update again lately, pulling an all nighter tonight I reckon.
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| asda + hours |
[Dec 15th, 2005] |
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asda yaaay |
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Emanual - By American Machines |
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I finished most of my English work today, it's all out of the way now which is good =].
I called for Robbie about 8 and we went to asda, we were wondering round asda until about 11 and we gave a christmas card to the asda people! yayyyyy.
Asda rules kthxbi.
I'm at Robbies' now, I'm staying over night and going back early tomorrow morning.
Oooh also, I've installed my scanner back at home so I can scan wonderful things and post them on lj -cool-.
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| Chinese |
[Dec 13th, 2005] |
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Alright |
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Scary Kids Scaring Kids - What's said is done |
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I went out to a Chinese restaraunt with my Dad tonight, it was alright. I enjoyed it.
Apart from that I haven't really done anything else today exept for schoolwork obviousley. I've talked to people on msn and read a few of my comics.
I got bored so I made my LJ a little more Christmassy. I know I haven't gone to town to really make it look great but I can't see the point, it's only an LJ.
I'm going to buy a new domain and hosting in a few months, I'm going to use it as an art portfolio. Should be fun, I haven't had a domain in about a year and a half now. hmmm.
Luke said I could go to Nottingham with him on Saturday so I'm not going to be trapsing round on my own anymore, yay! =D.
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| English, English, English |
[Dec 13th, 2005] |
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The postal service - Nothing better |
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Arrgghhhhh! I have piles of English work to do, this annoys me because I want to go out but I have to stay in and finish all this off instead. Tutor coming tomorrow and I have to make up an excuse up as to why it's not all finished yet. I'll just say I had to do a load of VA work. She'll buy it.
I haven't done much today really, exept for English work. Ooh and after that I decorated my room a bit (not christmas like, just general) and I customized my jeans. Then I formatted by mp3 player on put all my albums on it, theres no downloads on it now so it's all legal, yay!
In other news, it's bloody late again, in fact it's today and I'm writing this entry as if it's yesterday. But it's 1am so it's close enough to yesterday :P. I really need to start getting more sleep.
I must go to Nottingham on Saturday, theres still peoples christmas presents I need to buy!
Eeeeeeek.
I sleep now.
x
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| Perfect |
[Dec 11th, 2005] |
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Something corporate - Konstantine |
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Tonight was perfect, I spent the evening with Soph. We wondered around town for a bit and read random magazines in Red Planet. Then I took her to the top of Fisher Lane park and we sat on a wall right at the top and looked over the Mansfield. It's a really good view from up there.
It started to drop cold we walked back to mine. We drank hot chocolate and watched tv in my living room. It felt perfect. I wanted to be with her, right there forever.
We had to leave at 8, she had to catch the 8:45 train back home. I walked her back to the trainstation and watched her get on the train. I called in Red Planet again to get a drink and then I started to walk back home. It took me a long time to get home, I kept stopping and sitting down on benches to think about things. It cleared my mind.
When I got in I went on msn as usual. Adam was upset, Lois was upset and they both miss the old days. We talked about how things have changed and it made Adam and Lois cry. I've cried so much over those memories, this time I didn't feel the need too. I wanted Adam and Lois to see how different things are now and how far apart we are. I think they realize this now. I want Rob too, I miss him.
Lois sent sent me one of her diary entries over msn, it made me cry. I won't post it on here because it's her diary entry and it's private to her. I guess all I can say is it was all completley undertandable. I could relate to all of it. I reminded her the time when we were at Adam's house and me and Adam were drunk and we were both crying and I told her that everything was going to be fine and everything was going to be perfect and I told her not to worry. I guess I was wrong. I don't think Me, Adam, Lois and Robbie will ever be the same again. I hate it.
I was right in some ways though, I have perfections in my life, I have Sophie and I have my memories and I have memories in the making. I just hope that Adam, Lois and Robbie have some perfections in their life to keep them surviving. Without those 3 people. I would not be who I am today.
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| Rufford |
[Dec 10th, 2005] |
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Straylight run - Mistakes we knew we were making |
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I went to Rufford Park today, it was pretty fun and I bought Sophie a christmas card and I got a bit more Christmas shopping donw there. It was all very relaxed, it was nice to go there for a change. I took some pictures.
I WOULD LIKE TO PLUG MY
The photos of Rufford are on there and they need comments. It would be greatly apprectaited
I've been feeling a little weird all night and I just finished talking to Adam about temptation and his drug problem and everything. I reckon I go a little hard on him sometimes, I just want him to still be my best friend, he still is I think. We just don't see eachother very often because he hangs out with people that I don't like and I think they like him only for the image he portrays - on the other hand, I have some guys who only like me for the image I portray, I don't tend to mix with them like he does though- people sometimes ask me why I'm friends with him; because he seems like an idiot. But I know how he is inside and I know that guys mind like the back of my hand I reckon. He's not an idiot, trust me.
I decided what I want for christmas.
I want time. I want all the time in the world with Sophie, alone. I want stars and candles and warmth with her. I want everything to be perfect. I want our own little world.
Please>
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| Friends, memories and alone walks. |
[Dec 9th, 2005] |
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The postal service - We will become silhouettes |
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I went to Nottingham today with Sophie, Nikki, Luke and Kerry. It was real fun and I had a laugh with everyone, everyone seemed happy, especially Nic, she was hyper most of the time.
Me and Luke went christmas shopping and broke off from Nic and Sophie and Kerry so they didn't see what we were buying. I bout Nikki I pair of underwear!! and I'm going to decorate them withc cool cartoon drawings and get her friends to sign them, then I'll put them in a frame and give them to her.
I couldn't get the Reliant K album that Sophie wanted because select a disc had to order it as import and it would take ages to get to the store. I have bought her a little something already but I want to get her a bit of something else.
The train journey back home was fun ^__^.
But after everyone left I started thinking about things, I got off the train at Mansfield and walked home. I saw a guy get beat up, he looked a decent guy and I felt sorry for him but I couldn't do anything about it. I carried on walking up the hill near to where I live and I started thinking again and I started crying a bit so I sat on a wall on the peak of the hill to relax, but that just made things worse. I looked over the town and I could see everywhere I used to hang out with friends, and I remembered things that happened at these places I could see and I wished I was there and I wished I could relive all of it again and I started crying harder which wasn't good. I just tried to ignore it and I walked straight back home from there. My eyes dried by the time I got home.
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